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​The profound lack of honesty and the unbearable amount of superficiality do not look like good “rules” for a game to me.

I was talking with my psychiatrist today and he told me to stop expecting people to be honest and to stop being honest and just play the game. Well, this doesn’t really connect with me because I don’t want my feelings to be a game. If we have to lack honesty in all of our relationships, if we cannot be our true selves, then when are we allowed to live our lives? I’ve been told that honesty scares people, but why should it? There is a difference between being honest and being a jerk, which I think is something often misunderstood by men. I do want to be honest with what I feel, what’s the purpose of going to the doctor because your leg hurts but you have to tell them your head hurts. And yes, I know, a doctor’s purpose is to heal, the same way humans are supposed to help each other and thrive in a community. 

We are not by definition and by purpose antisocial creatures, we are not built to be desensitized, so why are we trying to make everything a capitalistic game where you cannot be honest, where you have to live in a world of HR that works for the company, not for you.

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